Abg Muadz

The principal Ms Balvinder requested to see me regarding the progress report of abg at school. A bit surprised as 5 years old boy, he had three assessments, done with a good result (BM 84, BI 80, and Science 91). Ehmm looking at his exam paper simply like the question I took when I was in year 1, 25 years ago. Soo tough!! I am sure, when abg in year 1 in two years time, the question was a bit harder than this. Therefore, I guess he would follow the path in which the exam oriented is the measure for grouping him as an outstanding, average, or just satisfactory. I send my kid to kidder garden when he reached 4. He started to know the abc stuff so early, hoping that he could manage to read by age 5. Ambitious mother haah! So many things I want my abg and adik to involve in, attend music class, at least they can play one musical instrument, swimming class, chest class…..etc. During my time, there was no such program. So now kira balas dendam lah!!! Kesian my abg n adik. Abg started quran at age 4 plus. Now he going to qaraati 3. Nowadays, he was a bit lazy or ding-dong with me to read quran, as he had so many cartoons to watch. Tv ni pun satu hal juga. I urge myself to be as the crow flies with him. I have to discipline myself so that I can knob abg properly. It was not very easy to teach quran by your own. I took this challenge, although I knew, it was tough and not easy. Good luck to me though!!!

Simple and short

Walaaaa!!! Sunday was my busiest day ever. I started to do all the hanky packing. The first to start with was the kitchen. I didn’t noticed that since six years ago I had bought so many glassware and tupperware! I couldn’t believe it! That was why my husband always nagging at me. Where should I put those entire things? I think I should organize yard sale or car boot sale to do all the clearance!!! Hello! Hello! Who want my things? Aiya nobody want oldies item…

So tired cleaning the house, our stomach was grooming. What should we make for lunch? My abg suggested that we had laksa, but not ‘beli’ ones, but home-made laksa. So, staring at the clock, it seemed too late to go to market to buy fish, then I decided to go to ‘pelantar ikan’ nearby the sea. Started the car, heading toward it, luckily all fresh fish were there, the fishermen boat just arrived and I and my Bibi need to bring the plastic bag to get certain amount of the fish. We had 2kg of fresh “ikan selayang’for only RM4 to make ‘kuah laksa’… sure delicious…want the recipes?

How to make “laksa kuala perlis “!!!

Aiyaa… I have no specific ingredients on how to make kuah laksa, First I rang up my mom to ask the list of all item, then I just follow my instinct on how much of each to put. As long as the kuah laksa finally jadi. Hheheh… until now my instinct is still correct and acceptable as everything that I cooked “menjadi’ and alhamdullilah everybody like it especially my mother in law (MIL). That was good enough to impress all my in law. Ehmmm ok let see the final result lah!!!

Ha.. This is my home-made laksa. You can see but you cannot eat!! Yummy

Happy Father's Day

Today abg came back from his school with something! He was so impatient to show me something impressive art he did at school. I didn’t expect any thing as he was not really artistic. He didn’t do well in coloring and also drawing. Same as me, I’m not very skillful at anything that to be relate at art work like drawing, coloring and the worst part writing. I’m kind of straight-forward person. Don’t know how to be so creative, perhaps my ehmm which one ya left or right brain… don’t know la… can’t function to the maximum level.

Back to my abg drawing….he shown me this…..

What do you thinks his card to his ABAH? Okey lah kan.. can give 3 Stars. Then I opened the inner part of it…. He wrote this words…..

although there is here and there spelling error, i thing the effort is count. Thank you abg for giving this card to ABAH. We are now counting the time to be with you really soon!!

Weekend Agenda

It was so boring day. I don’t know how to describe it as this day was tremendously gloomy. My morning session was started by accompany my mom in law breakfast. Then get ready to walk off to wet market. In my mind, my today’s carte du jour will be nothing. I would say I don’t want to get busy with the cooking stuff as no body will come to my dwelling today, and of course my husband was not around. My intention to cook was not exciting anymore. Usually, my husband was the one who will taste my cuisine, he will tell me whether my cook good or just ok. As usual, the comment was pleasant to ignore. However, my elder son wanted something special from his mom. Then that is why the ‘bihun soto’ came across my mind while having my breakfast just now. I rushed my car heading to pasar. Luckily still have the chicken for my soup; I bought 1kg potatoes for making ‘begedil’, chilies for the ‘sos’. That is it. My maid prepare all the stuff, washed the chicken, and veggie. At 11am, I started my cooking. Almost 1230, everything ready. At that moment, adik and abang playing pool outside the house. We had our bihun soto at our backyard. Bibi took out the mat, place it on the floor, brought all the food outside, everybody sit, and we started to eat. Thanks God, there was no rain. Adik and abang enjoy their meal very much! I was very glad to see them very happy having their lunch. So we were like having a picnic!!! Ok lah tu kan!!... I don’t have a camera to picture everything we had today. Perhaps I need to buy the cheep ones. I told my husband about my intention, but he said NO.

After that, adik went to sleep but abg remain watching ‘ultraman’. I have no idea why all the kids (perhaps) like to watch this cartoon. My sons keep repeating the same cd all day long. Moreover, the worst part now, the movie is in the astroceria. I cannot event watch any dramas or news. Every time my mood to watch my tv was disturb by head banging, or crying, or quarrel to get the tv remote. This cartoon so much influences my kid on how they behave. Sooo scary! What need to do? The words like “tak guna’,’bodoh’, ‘baik kapten’, ‘bersedia untuk berlepas’ always become their daily use. Acting like their superhero is a must everyday. At times, adik will become a “raksaksa’ and abg is “ultraman”and vice versa. No wonder they keep saying what they hear in the movies! I tried to stop the tv and channeled to a different cartoons, but still the keen is there (their HEROES). ULTRAMAN, who‘s in this universe has created you until all kids (especially boys) like to watch you!!! After years watching this film, I manage to learn by heart all the characters. Starting from Ultraman’s father (Taro), his mothers (Tari kot.. hehehe) and his siblings (Tiga, Nervius, Seven, Ultra), perhaps a lot more to come in the future. I don’t know when will they die!

Just a reminder.....

My time is so precious. At time, I feel that the clock needle moving so fast as I am afraid that I could not finished my work on time. So many things have to do before the departure to the UK. I must say I have to do it all by my own. Please! Anybody can help me. Starting from moving out of the quarters, visas kid and maid, selling all the goods, car and everything. Office workloads almost up the sky! A bit tired drenched in this environment alone!! Sometimes, complaining of everything almost in me every single day. I don’t know the habit grew so fast. Fear if people around me boring or take me for granted. Ehmmm…this is small challenge for me, (I guess). There is a lot of people out there having more hassle than me right!! But they can survive and still hope for the Almighty God to help them. Trust in God is essential. His attributes are beyond our imaginations. He is capable of everything and anything. I hope my mind is focused on that. Dear, please don’t blame the situation as that will help you to become mature in running the life accordingly.

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I think it is very tough to be a first-class “muslimah” if certain criteria are not being in me. What are those criteria?

Foremost, accept that God Almighty exist, He will help us at any conditions. It depends on how quickly or slow He lends a hand. But don’t miserable, please be patience.

Secondly, I should say is pray sincerely. ‘aku sembahyang arini lillahi taala ka atau tangkap muat je?” seriously say that sometimes we try to drag our feet to the last minute of pray. Why? This question must be answered. In our heart, there is no affirmation that God always close to us. For me we have lack of feeling of seeing somebody who loves us most! Why? We don’t love HIM as much as HE love you!! That is the reason why we always delay on doing our duty. Never do things that will only prevent us to do things that are much more important. Nothing is much more important than obeying what God asks from us. Stop anything you are doing. If somebody were to ask you where you are heading, say that you are answering God's call to prayer.

Thirdly, pray in the middle of the night. This, I could say very tough one. Thanks to Him if He choose me to do it constantly. It is very hard to wake up early in the morning. I don’t know why… I can’t make it as a routine. If say, I had a problem then the tendency to do it incline drastically. I feel that I’m not sincere enough to gain someone help me!! When I reflect of my attitude, I feel so sad.

Fourthly, recite His name as often as possible. Zikrh, reciting His name will ultimately make me a strong Muslim because we are constantly reminded of what good He has done for us.

What are next? Be grateful for everything I have. I’m very happy to have a wonderful husband, two adorable kids, and insyallah to succeed in doing my specialist training. The more thankful we are the more we will realize how much we have been blessed. In addition, by doing this, God willing, we will be stronger because we will believe that God is present.

Fast for the right reasons. Neither because you want to impress others, nor because you want to feel superior in terms of popularity when you get fitter later. Fast with the intention to please only Allah, and to get the reward for fasting. Also fast because you will be able to perform solat correctly and also because you want to be responsible over your health. Nevertheless fast because of remembering those who do not have privileges like food and water. I urge myself to fast at least twice a week, preferably on Mondays and Thursdays.

Never lie. It should be emphasized again that God hates his adherents to lie to others. My integrity will directly have an impact towards my dignity. People will look high upon me if I am honest and true to whatever I say.

Struggle towards goodwill. Sacrifice my time and visit the mosque if there is a lecture. Forfeit my property to those who needs it more than I do. In other words, always give charity. The recipient will be thankful that you have given them aid in their daily life. Remember, the one who gives is better than one who receives.

Be gracious towards my parents. They have worked hard to bring home food. My mother has suffered all the pain just to bring me to this world. What have I done to say thanks to them? They have brought joy to my life by buying anything every now and then. Have I acknowledged that and appreciated them? Do whatever they expect of me and I will be fine.

Never sough over my loved one's death. Know that God did that because He loves my loved ones even more than I do. Accept that death is a resting phase for my loved ones against all the trouble this world can bring about.

Never waste my Time on useless things. The wasters will be the brother of evil. At day of judgment, some items/properties are going to talk for the reason I wasted/damaged the properties. Wisely use my time!!

Read the Qur'an/Hadith Regularly. It will keep my iman stronger. It will keep my soul pure. Hope I’ll get ‘barakah’ for every letter I read.